My song for the week is Coldplay’s “Fix you”,
and I think many have find some sort of comfort, story, or have lived themselves
vicariously through every letter of this song. Mostly because, we all have to
agree, we know what it means to be fixed by someone, whether it is a person, a
being, or yourself. We were all in need of a fix, good or bad.
I was fortunate enough to have seen Coldplay
perform this piece of art live at their Cape Town show, and I remember
screaming every word along with the thousands present. I remember how connected
I felt. I hugged strangers around me. We looked like loyal rugby fans, singing
shosholoza. It was just spectacular. There were fireworks, everywhere. It was
better than any revival show. It felt like God was in the mix.
Apart from us all having been fixed once,
this song just echoes humanity. It shouts our raw nature to love and be loved.
I once loved a girl, but I wasn’t completely myself around her because I wanted
her to love me also, and she did. We both were broken and wasn’t exactly sure
it was what we wanted. She was and is truly beautiful, but for years she had
built these walls around her heart. We tried to fix each other but it wasn’t
long before we decide it best to go our separate ways.
Sometimes we think our fixes come in neatly
sealed packages, but most of the times our fixes come from our brokenness; from
our deepest aching. I was crushed after I parted ways with her, and I lived a
total reckless life for a while afterwards, but I’m fixed now. I’m fixed
because I was broken. I’m fixed because I risked my heart for something, and
even though that something wasn’t for me, it was worth it. I loved again, and
this time it’s more beautiful.
Never give up on love; it’s too beautiful a
thing to let it go to waste. You might not want to love now, or maybe you’re
not ready for it. Or maybe you are ready but nothing is happening.
“Lights
will guide you home, and ignite your bones”.
Something somewhere will spark inside you,
and you’ll be fixed from whatever distorted your picture of what love is
supposed to look like.
“But if you never try you’ll never know,
just what you’re worth”.
You have to put yourself out there and risk
it for love. Love is taking a chance on someone with your heart. Letting them
into who you are, without assurance of getting anything. I have a friend who is
so, so beautiful, I’m sure she’s a goddess, but she hasn’t been on a date in
months. Many times she would question her beauty and I have to reassure her
over and over that love will find her at the right time. As much as I want her
to find love, I want her to find her worth from within, with or without someone
to love. The person that will love you will just add to the worth you already
possess, but don’t find worth only after you have found someone.
Lights will guide you home.
